I don’t deserve this...
“I will sign my name to my defense. Let the Almighty answer me. Let my accuser write out the charges against me. I would face the accusation proudly. I would wear it like a crown. For I would tell him exactly what I have done. I would come before him like a prince.” Job 31:35-37
Student: “I don’t believe I deserve a zero on this test.”
Teacher: “I don’t believe you do either but, it’s the lowest grade I could give you.”
When the U.S. Constitution was written, the founders worried that there weren't enough protections in the constitution to protect Americans from the worst of the abuses they had seen from the British crown. Therefore, the Bill of Rights was added which provided the first ten amendments spelling out specific protections that U.S. citizens would enjoy from their federal government. The sixth amendment guarantees the right of the accused to confront witnesses against him/her. Also known as the Confrontation Clause, it affords defendants the opportunity to face the witnesses against them and dispute their testimony. This right includes the opportunity to question (cross-examine) any witness brought before him in court.
I wonder if our founding fathers read the 31st chapter of Job...
In his final defense against the accusations made by his friends, Job lays out his defense point by point; He is faithful (“I made a covenant with my eyes not to look lustfully at a young woman” -31:1). He is just (“[I have not] denied justice to any of my servants” -31:13). He is merciful (“[I have not] denied the needs of the poor” -31:16). He is not covetous ( “[I have not] allowed my heart to be enticed by material wealth” -31:24-27). He is humble (“[I have not] rejoiced at my enemy’s misfortune” -31:29).
He can think of nothing else to say so he simply says “write it all down...I’ll sign it! If my accuser would do the same thing I would wear those accusations as a badge of honor because they are empty and false.”
Of course, Job made one miscalculation; he mistook a test for a judgement and it precipitated an inappropriate response. He actually implied his own position was superior to God’s. But, God had never accused Job of anything. Neither, in fact, had Satan. Satan was only needling Job to see if he would walk away from the God who had given him everything. The devil knew Job was righteous and would naturally have to view his calamities as unfair...if that were the standard. He would have to confront God with the demand, “tell me why you’re doing this!”
Well, the standard is not fairness. If it were, we’d all be in trouble. As the Apostle Paul reminds us, we have all sinned (Rom. 3:23) and the consequence for sin is death (Rom. 6:23). Yet, here we are, as believers, enjoying the promise of eternal life and guess who paid for our sin...not us!
It’s not fair!
If we aren’t careful, we all do this when trouble invades our lives...because it’s not fair. We say “I’m a good person I don’t deserve this!” Some of us are more fortunate than Job; we are well aware of our sin so we humbly take our punishment. But...we make Job’s mistake. This is not Crime and Punishment. Calamity is not evidence of an accusation. Calamity is part of the fabric of life...Satan testing our limits to see if we will give up on God.
Sure, life would be easier if God had not given Satan license to push us. But, God believes in us. He knows we can endure if we don’t buy the lie that He is not worthy of our worship.
No, the standard is not fairness...it is endurance. “He that endureth to the end, the same shall be saved” ( Mark 13:13). I might know why. Our endurance is God’s proof to Satan that he doesn’t really have any power at all.
So...we are not the victims, we are the evidence.
Live boldly out there today...